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My mom is strong.
Very Strong.
Yesterday she broke down and said " It has been two weeks since we buried your dad."
Tonight when I went in his jacket and his hat were not on the rack anymore.
I didnt say anything.
As I see my mom get better each day, I see more and more things of my dads move. I am not sure where they are going. She asked me did I want his Bible.. not yet. I dont want his Bible yet. I dont know that I am ready to hold it in my hands with his name on the front and realize even more , that never again will he read it.
Oh.. I know.. he doesnt have to. He is sitting at the authors feet.
But it still makes me sad.
I am taking the hat and the jacket as a sign. A sign that my mom is healing and that is a good thing.
But .. it still makes me sad.
1 comment:
Beautifully said my friend.
As you know, I lost my Mother 4 years ago, and today her neighbor emailed me with a few words about Mom. Then she emailed me again, apologizing, for fear it had upset me. I told her, had it happened that first year after her death, I would have sobbed. But now, the healing is happening (even though EVERY day I crave to have her here again!), and I dearly LOVE to hear the stories, and see the reminders of Mother.
This too will come to you Debbie. But allow the tears. It's all part of the healing process. One day you will be able to hold his Bible, smile, and thank God for allowing you to have the best Dad in the whole wide world!
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