I don't worry much about tomorrow. I never have been much of a worrier .
Ive never really considered myself a woman of strong faith . I mean , when I compare myself to people like my mom, my aunts and ladies from church like Mrs. Pennington I feel so inadequate and so NOT a vessel ready to serve. It isn't my heart that feels different , though who knows what is in another persons heart, it is all the wrappings of my heart, of me. I wear clothes that are not always modest. I am not meek ( at all ) and most people would probably think I am not humble. I don't lift my arms in praise in a service but little tear drops escape my eyes when I sing. It is like I am at the throne of God and it is too personal to speak or sing, or lift my arms .. and sometimes even hard to breathe.
I do have faith, it just looks different than most. My faith helps me to smile when I am hurting because I know who holds tomorrow. My faith helps me keep my head up when things go wrong because I know God has a bigger plan for my life. My faith helps my love others because he loves me - even with all my worldly flaws. So who am I to judge ?
A friend posted on facebook that she doesn't do New Years resolutions. She picks a character trait that she needs to work on , a weakness ... and focuses on that for the year. There is no deadline. You don't have to spend more money on yet another gym . You don't have to radically change your routine. All you have to do is change your thought process and be more intentional about your life and the choices you make as you open your mouth or do something. She chose non-assuming. She wants to be less assuming about herself and other people. What a wonderful thing to be. Much of life's problems happen when we assume what someone is thinking or what they will do. Disappointments usually follow assumptions.
When I started thinking about what character trait I would like to work on I wanted to arm myself with many choices so I googled ( of course ) character traits. Some of the traits I found that were interesting to me were not really things I could / or should work on . They just made me giggle.
Dainty - I would LOVE to become more dainty.
Bossy - Randy says dont worry I already have that one down pat.
Awkward - Well... that sounds fun .
Sarcastic - Who me ?
What I needed to focus on is really very evident. I just cant put my finger on the word for it. I am not a private person at all. I need to be more private. My character trait for 2013 will be unobtrusive. This doesn't mean that I wont post about school and the awesome things we do. I hope those post encourage others to go the extra step when they are teaching small children. What the world doesnt need to see is what I cook. What I think. What I wear. What song I am singing. I mean, why post that stuff anyway ? I really never have the intentions of trying to make anyone feel like my life is better than their life or that I am some amazing person. I am not.
|Part of Speech:||adjective|
|Definition:||keeping a low profile|
|Synonyms:||humble, inconspicuous, low-key, low-profile,meek, modest, quiet, reserved, restrained,retiring, self-effacing, soft-pedaled, subdued,tasteful, unassuming, unnoticeable,unostentatious, unpretentious|
What a challenge . This will not be easy for me.