This year is no different. Here is how I am doing so far.
I am a member of Curves. I paid for a full year up front to make sure I dont back out. I used to go faithfully but the last two months has been awful. I decided with the excuses of weddings and the holidays over that I really needed to get back in the groove. To commit to do anything extra like that means that I have to do it VERY early. There is no time as the day goes on. I went to bed last night at 9 pm, knowing I have to hit the floor early. I set the alarm for 5:30. I woke up this morning at 4:00 am! 4..... A ..... M....... When the alarm went off I was wide awake and turned it off. I was a little chilled so I laid there before I threw the warm covers off ... and promptly fell asleep and woke up at 5:55 and had to RUN out of bed, since Cindy was waiting on me. I did go.... a small accomplishment , I guess.
I also have two self help type books I am reading . I started one on January 1.
The book is called Letting Go by Melody Beattie. Todays reading was about accepting help and realizing that I can trust people and that I dont have to do everything by myself. Hm.m... that one will take a while. Sometimes, it is just easier to do it myself.
The other book I am reading is " Love Dare' from the movie Fire Proof. As I read, I thought yes.. I can make a commitment to do this . This will be easy. Randy and I dont have problems, but everyone can use some fine tuning. The first dare is about not making one single negative comment for a day. Oh... about 10 minutes after closing the book Randy said something and I said... " Randy, I wish you could always expect good from people and not bad. I think you over look the good when you ......" I took a breath. In ten short minutes I had failed. FAILURE..... I didnt realize I was being negative but I was.
So, needless to say, I need a take TWO. I need a re- do. I think tomorrow I will work out on time. I will re read Dare one and pretend that I never read it the first time ( that's not cheating is it?) I will NOT eat that left over double chocolate trifle that I made over the weekend. Opps. I didnt mention that before did I?
Maybe I am taking on too much.
Maybe I should just to the diet.
Maybe I should just do the love dare.
Maybe I should just focus on my co-dependency.
Maybe..... all of these are connected.