Monday, January 5, 2009

New Beginnings - take TWO

So, I usually have those New Years resolutions that include losing weight , yadda yadda, yadda.
This year is no different.  Here is how I am doing so far.

I am a member of  Curves. I paid for a full year up front to make sure I dont back out.  I used to go faithfully but the last two months has been awful.   I decided with the excuses of weddings and the holidays over that I really needed to get back in the groove.  To commit to do anything extra like that means that I have to do it VERY early.  There is no time as the day goes on.  I went to bed last night at 9 pm, knowing I have to hit the floor early.  I set the alarm for 5:30. I woke up this morning at 4:00 am!  4..... A  ..... M.......   When the alarm went off I was wide awake and turned it off.  I was a little chilled so I laid there before I threw the warm covers off ... and promptly fell asleep and woke up at 5:55 and had to RUN out of bed, since Cindy was waiting on me.  I did go.... a small accomplishment , I guess.

I also have two self help type books I am reading . I started one on January 1.   

The book is called Letting Go by Melody Beattie. Todays reading was about accepting help and realizing that I can trust people and that I dont have to do everything by myself.  Hm.m... that one will take a while. Sometimes, it is just easier to do it myself.  

The other book I am reading is " Love Dare' from the movie Fire Proof.  As I read, I thought yes.. I can make a commitment to do this .  This will be easy.  Randy and I dont have problems, but everyone can use some fine tuning.  The first dare is about not making one single negative comment for a day.   Oh... about 10 minutes after closing the book Randy said something and I said... " Randy, I wish you could always expect good from people and not bad. I think you over look the good when you ......"  I took a breath. In ten short minutes I had failed.  FAILURE..... I didnt realize I was being negative  but I was.  

So, needless to say, I need a take TWO. I need a re- do.  I think tomorrow I will work out on time. I  will re read Dare one and pretend that I never read it the first time ( that's not cheating is it?)  I will NOT eat that left over double chocolate trifle that I made over the weekend.  Opps. I didnt mention that before  did I?

Maybe I am taking on too much.  
Maybe I should just to the diet.
Maybe I should just do the love dare.
Maybe I should just focus on my co-dependency.

Maybe..... all of these are connected.



AdamandKaylasmommy said...

Maybe we should just love ourselves for who we are. Afterall we both have a great man beside us that fell in love with us.

Rita said...

You are such an encouragement, my friend. It always surprises me how often we are working on the same areas. I don't speak negatively to my husband :)....but have gotten negative with other loved ones recently. 7 good things for every negative thing....I guess I need to get the pennies. Were you in the workshop where they told us to put pennies in a pocket and transfer them to the other pocket as we said good things to help us remember to say that many positive things each day? Sigh...with my mouth, maybe I need to put $ in the pocket and take one away from myself for every negative comment. Aw crud..was that negative? Thinking positive about ourselves is the real challenge!

Sun-Kissed Savages said...

I have that book, too, Debbie. And I started it. And then promptly got distracted with the holidays. Now I will read along with you, and really take the challenge seriously (I need accountability, I guess.)

Dale Prince said...

Is Cindy your workout partner? I usually go to the gym for three months and, then, when I'm not Bill Goldberg, I get tired of it and stop going. But now my friend Ryan and I go and talk about the other people there. Anyone who is in worse shape than us is sad. Anyone in better shape is clearly a douche bag. It makes it a lot easier to go and I'm on my 6th month!

I'm not saying that you must talk ugly about people, but a partner makes it a lot easier.